What is burning to be said?
I ask myself this question every time I write one of these posts. All the ideas in my notebook dangle above my head like a rainbow colored mobile of thought bubbles. Maybe this…or maybe THIS!
And then I go for a sun-streaked stroll along Spring street (say that three times fast) and the creative food I need appears here, in this #bleedinghearts mural by John Goldcrown.
I begin to imagine my body is morphing into this bright background of hearts kind of like Gotye and Kimbra in the song Somebody that I used to know, until I am totally camouflaged. It doesn’t feel like a concrete jungle anymore, more like a really f*cking cool music video. That’s the magic of NYC.
I feel accomplished making it to two years here. A solid victory “I got this” face.
I know how to ride the waves of people. Getting from point A to point B without delay or street traffic gets me high. I feel like water.
Then, BAM.
Reality check!
dog shit EVERYwhere
screeching train and ambulance sounds
mentally ill yelling at the demons in their head
solicitors coming at you about climate change
a dead rat tumbling down the subway stairs (true story)
miles of uphill stair climbing
It can feel like satin’s obstacle course.
Last week I was running errands in 30 mph rainy winds. I watched umbrellas get sucked up into the sky to die. I felt like Lieutenant Dan in the storm. Well, maybe not that dramatic, but I roared right back at the elements then realized the roar sounded more like a pirate saying "arrrrr" so I laughed instead.
I could let these challenging moments harden me. It has. It's softened me too. Because when I choose the path of least resistance moments of awe, connection and magic appear.
NYC, is teaching me how to choose LOVE over and over again.
Cheers to two more years.